It’s a strange feeling, waking up unhappy. Was it nerves? Probably. All I know is that it took a while for me to get out of bed because thoughts constantly raced through my head, scattered. I tried to drown it out with music, but that only helped a little. It rained today as well, so I guess that was a boost to the morning. All I could say was, thank god it’s Friday.
Anyway, at work, the first task I was given was to make a spreadsheet of all the tasks I was given since I arrived to Can of Worms. There were surprisingly more tasks than I expected, so I’m glad I’m doing stuff. (Not that I wouldn’t be). After that was complete, my boss had me read through a Shores Beyond Shores reading guide. I was only supposed to look through it, but I ended up copyediting as I went.
Around 12:30, the other interns arrived to work. It was a half day for me, so I was planning to leave at 1:30. However, it was the last day of work for one of the interns, so our boss wanted to take us to Jamyang Buddhist Centre for lunch. I went and got quiche once again. (Still delicious).
During lunch, my boss wanted us to give our feedback about the City of Literature proposal he had me read Wednesday. I remained quiet because I had no feedback to give. And I had no feedback to give because I had no clue what I read when I was reading that proposal. It made me look down on myself real hard because one of the goals I set for the internship was to learn to brainstorm more. Yet I just sat there in silence as the other interns gave their proper feedback.
Throughout the rest of lunch, I found it really hard to look my boss in the eye. The other interns seemed to manage a conversation easily, but when it came to me, I was really vague and seemed to make things more awkward than it needed to be. It was awful. Hopefully, I can learn to overcome these issues. And soon.